Stop being distracted by others, start focusing on myself

It's July, we're half through 2011 already. Looking back, it feels like I've been helping others more than helping myself. Failing myself to help others succeed. That's one sad way to look at it, but what's done is done. I just don't need to be involved in other people's life as I wanted to. I shouldn't put other's responsibilities as my own. I have stuff to do for myself and hardly can handle that. I need Me time, badly. I don't put myself in the spotlight, but that does not mean I don't deserve it. What I do and wanted to do is far greater than anyone else's anyway. I've been overlooked and overshadowed enough, don't make me feel worthless, when I know I'll be more expensive then you ever will be. Seriously, compare to everyone I'm a saint! Okay...time to hold back my ego. This half of the year just seems like I've been pushed around here and there everywhere like an idiot. I like handling my own situation rather than sharing it with everyone else and have them figure it out for me, which also led me to situations where people enter into my comfort zone and I just burst. I like having on my happy and optimistic personality and act like there's not a care in the world, but that's not always possible. There are times when I feel I just want to fall apart. I need to get myself together and just concentrate on myself.